I'm still trying to get back into the swing of blogging once a month, but considering we're only four days into May, and I'm here with an update about what went on during April, I think that's pretty good right?
I think for the time being, I will likely be sticking to monthly update. I will try to update on the last weekend of every month, but it is possible a new update might get pushed to early the following month, depending on how busy I am.
Okay, enough schedule talk, click on the 'read more' link to see what I've been up to in April.
We sucked BIG time dieting in April, and pretty much stopped. We didn't go back to having carbs with every meal, but we were eating out more, having non-keto snacks, and also a trip to the cinema. I'm up to 184lbs, so I've gained almost 10 lbs since last month.
On Monday (April 30) we got back to strict dieting for the foreseeable future. We're planning a holiday to Weston-Super-Mare in late July/ early August, so I imagine we'll take a week of then, but otherwise, we have to plans to break our diets.
And let me tell you ... right now it's damn hard! As I'm not yet back in ketosis I'm hungry more often and I'm craving ALL THE SUGAR. I do badly want to give in an have a Nutella sandwich or something, but I know if I do that, it'll be even harder to stay strong. I figure, even if we have a week's break in August 3-ish months is enough time to lose enough weight that taking vacation off won't be too damaging. Yes, taking another break in three months will likely set our progress back, but hopefully I can remain at 180lbs or under. Then I'll just have to stick at it from August until Christmas until I have another break.
To some people this probably seems like a terrible idea, and those who follow the ketogenic diet strictly will tell you taking breaks is bad, but I'd rather take breaks and potentially lose less weight than never take breaks. I need the breaks to motivate myself the rest of the time.
I guess the point is to do what works best for me, right?
I think my health is getting better. My period seems to be calming down. I had one at the beginning of April, and though it was longer than normal, it stopped eventually. I'm due another soon, so I'm hoping this time around it's for a shorter span than April's.
I'm still napping many mornings of the week, but I don't know if that's habit/ that I've trained my body to be used to napping, or if I actually need the extra sleep.
Almost every day I say "Oh, I won't nap tomorrow morning," but then unless I have a reason to go out or something, I usually end up giving in.
I want to say I'll try harder this month, but I also don't want to make promises I can't keep. We'll see how things go...
Depression wise, everything is good. I still have bouts of it, usually close to my period, but they're never long-lasting and I can usually pull myself out of them.
My exploration of spirituality/ witchcraft is still on-going. I haven't updated my grimoire/ Book of Shadows since the last time I mentioned it, and I've only done a little reading online. But I did celebrate Beltane by decorating for the Sabbat with a cherry blossom scented candle, some purple tulips, a little Maypole I made myself from a fallen branch and ribbons, and some spring/ summer decorative items like little butterflies, flowers etc.
I also took a walk around the park and sprinkled some seeds for the birds, as a way of thanking nature and earth for all that it's provided for me.
It's not much, and I haven't really delved into rituals or spells or anything, but I'm still trying to find what works for me, and also what my belief system is exactly.
I did some reading on Wicca, and many aspects of it I agree with - like the Sabbats, the three fold law, and the respecting of nature. But I'm not on board with the Wiccan idea of the god and goddess, for me whatever created life and the universe is more abstract, and hasn't got a defined form.
So, I wouldn't say I'm a secular witch, but I don't think I'm a Wiccan, either. I do feel like I'm still searching for something, though. I tried yoga and meditation a few weeks ago, and really enjoyed both, so I might give those another go - only with a proper yoga mat this time!!
Work is good! A lot of the previous issues have now been resolved, and although there are still some occasional hiccups, CQ seems in a really good. The negativity has died down and the team are very much dedicated to moving forward in a positive way by streamlining production processes and updating the contract to reflect the current climate.
After the talk with Eugene I mentioned in my last entry, and now seeing the improvements that are being made, I'm much happier and feeling less stressed with my work there.
Hopefully, as time progresses, things will get even better.
Writing is going well. For most of April I took part in CampNaNoWriMo, and have gotten my word count up to almost 52k. My aim for the story is 90k total, so I'm over halfway there. I'm using a loose version of the snowflake method to plot the story, in that I'm writing in a three act structure. I'm coming up to the end of act two, and will then begin building to the climax. If you want to know more about my work-in-progress, Choosing Sides, I know have a website page dedicated to it.
I also completed the revisions for "Solstice Spell," my Nutcracker Prince re-telling short story, and it's been added to the Magic at Midnight: A YA Fairy Tale Anthology, which is out on May 29, via Snowy Wings Publishing. You can pre-order it here: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07B5L38G8
Or if you're a book blogger/ reviewer you can sign up for a review copy here: docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLScdanX0TtTF4AhNdJtKnceMCdgYiq9l1HtNApJzjIAipB1rNQ/viewform
Sadly though, I have decided to shelve my age-gap romance Every Moment With You, and I have taken it down from Wattpad and Fiction Press. Even though the story is complete, I have lost all desire to revise it and post weekly updates, let alone get it in any shape to publish on Amazon etc. All my focus right now is on Choosing Sides.
Avengers: Infinity War
We went to see Infinity War last week, and without spoiling anything, OMG! It was so good. Action-packed, with some surprise twists, and for me surprisingly well written with good character development. I had assumed, because it had such a HUGE cast, that the story might be lacking, and everything would be focused on Thanos, but there were some great deep moments. Sure, it's not as deep/ thought provoking as Black Panther was, but as a movie with some much to cram in, it did very well.
And that's about it for this month. I'm going to head off an watch Gotham (OMG - the Joker storyline is fantastic).
Until next time.
Thoughts, feelings and random updates from author Clare Dugmore.