Since the New Year I've been terrible at keeping to my monthly blogging schedule, but I'm hoping to get back to it now. It's been a mixture of reasons - that I don't really feel like going into now - but I feel bad for neglecting my blog and want to get back on track.
So, here's what I've been up to the last few months.
The beginning of the year is always a busy one for birthdays, as me, Oldest and Hubby all celebrate within a month of each other (Youngest's is just before Christmas).
We bought oldest a phone for his birthday, and treated him to dinner out - including 24 doughnuts (shared over the course of a week with his brother, not all at one!) - which is what he asked for. It wasn't a very over the top birthday, but I think things tend to get a little more relaxed when you hit your teens, and he seemed happy with it.
I also didn't do much for my birthday. Hubby bought me a load of Sim points for Sims 3 (ahh, all that lovely store content), and we made keto lava cake, and had it with Oppo low calorie ice cream. We also met my mum for coffee (Starbucks - yay!) and I spent my birthday money from her on some Kat Von D makeup.
We were all sick for the couple of weeks between my birthday and Hubby's :( which led to us having a break from our diets, and then at around the same time I got a royalties payment from Amazon, so I treated us to the Pizza Hut all you can eat buffet for Hubby's birthday.
For his birthday, Hubby got new tattoos - one on each of the top of his hands. On the the left he got the Hunter's Mark from Bloodbourne, and on the right the Hellblade logo. They look fantastic!
Dieting has been hit and miss since they New Year. We tried running, and I liked it at first, but then something - I don't know it was the increase in running time or doing it in the cold - really turned me off. I have been missing it recently though. I'm thinking of trying again, but not doing Couch to 5k this time, and just doing brisk walking/ light jogging at my own pace.
We've also been taking more days off our diet. We had a break around Hubby's birthday at the beginning of March, and we also had a break at Easter. Hubby has lost a little weight, but I've stayed around 175lbs. I'm not sure how I feel about this - I kind of like having breaks, and I think as long as I don't go above 175 - 180 lbs I might be happy dieting/ eating healthily in a more relaxed way. We'll see how it goes...
My health hasn't been quite right for a few months. Because of contraception I was bleeding for almost four months. I've stopped taking contraception now, and the bleeding stopped for a few weeks, but it's just started up again. I'm hoping it's a regular period that will stop next week, and not another one of these giant periods...
I think the four months of bleeding might have effected my health/ possibly caused anaemia, because I'm very tired/ energy-less a lot of the time, and I often sleep in the morning after taking Youngest to school. I'm going to go back to the doctor soon, and ask them to test me for low iron. Hopefully with medication, I can get myself back on track and stop napping so much.
My depression has still been a little ... not right. It's a lot better than it was a few months ago, but there are still times I want to hide away and not do anything. I think it's probably all connected to the prolonged bleeding, and whatever lack of vitamins/ minerals etc. that caused.
Plus, the last few months have been a little stressful with money/ work worries. But things have started to improve, and I feel like everything is on the verge of being much better, so I'm going to focus on positivity and not things in the past I can't change.
I'm still exploring my spirituality, and did some pages of research and notes in my grimoire/ Book of Shadows about the seasons etc. but I haven't been doing as much as I'd like, mostly due to the excessive napping.
I did celebrate Imbolc by doing a cleansing ritual where I carved a sigil I found on Meara Lavender's Tumblr for a "Blessed Imbolc," onto an invigorating lemon bath bomb from Lush. I then held the bath bomb and meditated on what I wanted to achieve moving forwards, thinking about the negativity I wanted to cleanse from my life and spirit. Then I took a relaxing bath, using the bath bomb, while still focusing on cleansing my life.
Even though my intentions were right, I feel like I didn't follow through. which, combined with my inattention to my grimoire (among other things) is an indication to me. I'm not making time for my spirituality. I either need to devote time to it, like I do other aspects of my life, or realise that for the time being it needs to take a back seat to other things.
I don't want to say 'oh, going forward I'm going to update my grimoire every month' or 'I'm going to preform X amount of rituals every month,' but I do feel like things need to change. Hopefully while I'm getting other aspects of my life back on track, I can work on my spirituality, too.
A lot of the stuff I've spoken about in this post so far seem negative, like I'm displeased with certain aspects of my life. And in part, that's true. As I mentioned above, due to money worries, depression and other stresses, the last few months have been tough. But it hasn't all been negative.
Things with CQ are in a good place, and I'm happy with my position there. I'm thinking less of moving onto something new. The management team are making lots of changes, and making effort to get things back on track. Eugene spoke to me privately last month saying he feels that this years things with WishKnish are going to take off (they have a lot of exciting possabilities lined up) and that will have a positive effect on CQ. He wanted to know I was still with them going forward, as he sees me as a valuable part of the team. Hearing that really helped, and I'm excited to work with them moving forward. Since then many production aspects have changed, and we're still refining things, all with the aim of getting CQ back to a good place after some recent unrest and issues.
I'm excited for the future, and looking forward to seeing where things go as CQ revamp and relaunch themselves.
Writing is another aspect that's been going well since the beginning of the year. I've been working on a re-write of my 2011 urban-fantasy Sibylline Nights, which I've since renamed Triquetra: Choosing Sides. I'm on just over 26k words right now, and am taking part in Camp NaNoWriMo with the aim to get the story to at least 65k by the end of April (I'd already written 15k between January and March, and I'm aiming to add 50k in April).
Some aspects are the same - i.e. the main characters, their names, abilities and backstory/ history, and the theme is still centred around magic and witches. But previously, the story didn't have a clear direction and I didn't feel like the early chapters were distinct enough (it's really tough having three main point of view characters. Gods only know how GRRM does it). Now I feel the story has a clear direction, and I have a more thought out chapter plan that's helping me write. Plus I've changed the early chapters so that they're more distinct from each other, where as in the original draft all three MCs went through the same experience, so it was sort of repetitive. Now there isn't that repetition.
I'm so happy with where it's going, and excited to write this first draft, then get to work on revisions.
If you're interested in learning more, I post about it on social media, and this month I've been taking part in the WIP Joy challenge, as well as posting daily snippets from my Camp NaNo progress.
And That's About It
That's pretty much everything that's been going on in my life since I last updated. I'm hoping to get back to a regular schedule of updating once a month, so hopefully I can stick to that.
Until next time.
Thoughts, feelings and random updates from author Clare Dugmore.